Monday, January 05, 2004

Oops. I've been readmitted again (as of 8th November) and my thoughts aren't exactly sharec by other people so they might be called delusions. The trouble is they seem so real and I was *just* about to act upon them when I was readmitted into hospital. So it seems the system might work. I get to go home occasionally when the outreach team takes me back to my house and check things over. Who knows what the future may hold? I don't and to be honest, I'm not sure if I dare guess. There's the possibility of me having to sell my house to fund my entry into supported housing where an attendant can keep an eye on me to make sure I'm not going over the edge. I've been staying in Delaval ward, not Otterburn ward because that is the catchment are for Bedlington. Delaval does things differently and sometimes I prefer the Otterburn way of doing things. Despite my misgivings, I am staying on Delaval. I've also hav my medication changed from Amisulpride to Clozapine. This is a big climb down by me because I didn't want to have Clozapine because of the regular blood sample taking that has to happen. But my thoughts were so over the edge that they scared me into trying it despite the blood work.